“women over 30 can’t learn tech.”  Instantly could feel my blood boil, as I over heard one of the laborers on  a job sight talking sh!t.

Being the only woman on the job sight, w/ 15 dudes roaming around, frantically trying to finish a crazy build dead line, while Nate and I where installing a huge custom furniture package (at the same time? I know that’s another story)

Decided it was not the time or place for me to lose my shit on this young dumb ass, who obviously had very little life experience, but…

It fueled a fire in me.

Always been a hippie child, like straight up had a hippie birthday party when I turned eight.

The idea of peace, love, a beautiful world of abundance, acceptance and support has always been a deep rooted desire in my heart as long as I can remember.

Over the years and experience of life, the light and belief in me that this world would be possible, dimmed throughout life's experiences.

Shame, guilt, feeling not good enough, fears of judgment and isolation held me hostage in self loathing and kicking my own ass constantly with the thoughts in my head…

Radical self responsibility has been one of the most challenging things I've done AND at the same time absolutely the most empowering thing I've done.

Taking responsibility for myself, my thoughts, my actions, my results, my outcomes, my life…

The good, the ugly, the hard, the mistakes, the magic, the beauty, the adventure, the growth, the evolution.

Taking responsibility for what I have created in my life is what's given me control in my life!

Look back now, with so much gratitude for the version of me who said “enough is enough!”

That moment, sitting on the floor w/ my sweet dog, in our super cute home I got to live in with the love of my life…

Didn't understand why I was struggling so hard when on the outside life looked pretty good.

That moment, I decided “enough is enough.” Was sick of feeling shitty about myself, in my mind and in my body.

Sitting here in so much gratitude, on my beautiful deck, working in my zone of genius, watching the sun dance across the mountains and my dogs chill in the shade.

Remembering myself, not long ago, this property, deck, and mountain view only existed in my dreams.

Remember, the life you desire, your dreams, your goals, they are all so much closer than you realize.

Allowing feels like floating down the river, allowing the current to gently maneuver my boat, guiding me along the way.

Feels like trust knowing.

Feels like appreciation.

So often have blocked allowing…

Feeling unsafe or unworthy or not good enough.

Until I learned…

The feeling of “omg is this real life?!?”

Getting to create, build and grow abundance, impact, resilience and my life with my best friend, lover and business partner!💜

Even when the feel of “but I am not ‘there’ yet.” 😕comes up, it is quickly followed by, “but I am making progress to get ‘there’ everyday”…

Needed this reminder today!

While I have come leaps and bounds in my growth, from so much self loathing, doubt and self shit talk…. To cultivating genuine self love, empowering self talk and belief in myself and my dreams…

Self doubt and negativity self talk still creep into my mind if left unattended.

One of my favorite analogies, from a mentor of mine, Brooke Castillo “an unattended mind is like an unattended toddler with knifes in their hands running around the house!”

Asked my coach… ”Focus on the pocket moments of delight in the everyday things, the smaller the better.” she said.

Thought to myself ‘That seems so insignificant. Can it really be that simple?’

Nearly three years later, after intentionally practicing these 2 practices below, I absolutely feel more gratitude, joy, bliss and fulfillment in my everyday life! Way more than I ever did before.

Kelsey in Lotus yoga pose on her hot pink tie die pants.

Give these two steps a try…

So grateful he is alive and healing!

And it is moments like this that remind me, life is short!

Reminds me that this life is for living! Every single day! Not someday… TODAY!

We don’t need to wait until xyz to be happy, to love ourselves, to believe in ourselves, our dreams and our desires.

We can make the choice TODAY, to step into the version of ourselves that has the success, relationships, home, life that they are absolutely lit up by.

Everyday we get to wake up and CHOOSE to make today the best day ever!

Butterflies in my belly, took a deep breath and walked into the coffee shop.

Walked up to the counter to order my tea, smiled at the barista and asked how her day was going?

“Pretty good, just getting going.” she said.

Placed my green tea order with a please, thank you and smile, and she said “I like your smile.”

“No reason not to smile, right?” I said.

“Yeah, you’re right, it’s good to have the reminder every now and then.”

Completely transformed my self belief, trust, my self worth and manifested a dream property as we continued to expand both my coaching business and our fabrication business! 

If you have ever wanted to create a transformation in yourself or your life, remember it is never too late!

Allow yourself to not be perfect, allow the transformation to take its own course, allow yourself to speak kindly to yourself even when you feel like you “should” be kicking your own ass!

Remember a little bit each day adds up to massive transformation!  

So what are you waiting for?

Today is a great day for an adventure, take the leap and enjoy the journey! 

The most powerful thing ever done for myself is, believe in myself enough to invest time and energy into cultivating confidence, self love and self trust.

My life and myself have completely flipped upside down and transformed a dozen times in the last few years (to say the least).

March 2020 closed the doors to my thriving massage therapy business, for what I thought would be only a few weeks.

Little did I realize the universe had bigger plans for me.

Wanted to share with you, a free meditation gift.

Short guided meditation to help transform anxiety into peaceful grounding.

Share a little at the beginning, of how meditation has been a huge part of healing my anxiety and releasing a cycle of extreme panic attacks.

While anxiety still comes ups, often bits through out the day, it has been through practices such as meditation, yoga, body grounding and mindset, that have empowered me to grow, align and shine as my authentic self!

She sat back in her seat, “That surprises me! Your fear of judgment, I would have never guessed the way you show up online that you were still scared of judgment.”

Shared with her, that I've done mindset work to get to the point where my fear of judgment doesn't hold me back in inaction anymore.

Because at the end of the day, I recognize and know people are going to judge me no matter what I do.

So I've stepped into the version of myself, that's allowing judgment… For who I truly am.

“Motivation is an intention not impulse” heard these words for the first time last week, it was one of those moments where I could never unknow what I now know.

Rather than waiting around for the impulse of motivation to come… to do the thing that will get me to where I want to go…

I now know I get to set the intention every day to cultivate the motivation within myself.

As a growth seeking being, on this planet, having a human experience just like you..

“Did she just say I was connected and able to feel my feelings?” I thought to myself.

I sat back in my chair, took a deep breath and pondered what my coach just said as she continued on introducing the next breath practice.

Taking a quick moment to reflect and really feel into what my coach had just observed about me, me being able to actually feel into my emotions.

For most of my life this was not the case.

I was a chronic stuffer of emotions.

This is my great aunt Janice. Summer of 2021 we celebrated her 90th birthday at a brewery of course, because she thought breweries were really fun.

She came out to our wedding a few years ago, at 87, and was out on the dance floor having a blast, when she fell down (turns out she even broke a few ribs) and she got back up and continued to dance the rest of the night.

Today I want to say cheers to my great Aunt Janice, to my strong grandmother's, and great grandmothers, and to all of the other amazing strong, kind and caring women in my family! I love you all so much!!

I feel the tug of my old self.

The one that says “Why change? You survived yesterday, why do anything different today?”

I can feel the old thought patterns, the old habits, trying to sneak their way back in.

In small moments in my daily life.

I recognize old self sabotage patterns trying to rise up.